唱给所有不喜欢大声说话的人
我们是小众
并将从那里回归
带着骄傲
在行将逝去的夏夜空间里
低语着
——MuMa
《如果真的恨一个人，那就是我自己》，MuMa的歌。吸引我的是歌名，听完觉着没有人声更好。
blog里发发牢骚的话，让朋友操心，不好意思了。素未谋面的朋友们的关心，也让我感到温暖。其实仔细想想，每天面对的问题都一样，为什么今天心情可以很好，明天就突然很糟糕呢？
心如止水，我还远没有达到那个境界。平静的外表下面，藏的是一颗浮躁的心。
To be frank, I thought of suicide several times. But it was just a flash, never intend to do so. I always wonder those men who commit suicide, they have the courage to kill themselves, why not use the courage to stay alive. Is life that hard?
See how I made my life miserable:
I have debt of more than three thousand sin dollars yet I buy things I like, which is not necessary for living, and go out with friends for dinner, movie, and drink.
I know being a lesbian will make my parents go crazy yet I never think about getting a boyfriend.
I know my father expects much more than what I am gaining now yet I can work in the current company contentedly, without planning too much about further.
I like my senior but keep making stupid mistakes during work, which make trouble for her and also make myself embarrassed.
arr… I’m experiencing depression for all the things that I’ve done. I deserve it. I’m going to hate myself…
